I wrote the following poem when I was feeling very lonely and upset. I'm not good at poems at all. I don't like to follow the rules for poetry. I always thought real poems have no rules. They just come from the heart and that the first version is always the best if you just write what you feel and throw everything the "experts" and teachers say out the window. That's what I did. It's a poem about, basically, the loneliness I feel, the pain, the heartache - of pretending to be whom I am not. All for the good of my family. Because they could never, ever understand. And certainly never accept me for whom I really am. Who I am though, is every hero in my stories, I am Caddy, Zenith, Clio, even Wrath. I am also the girl who wrote this poem. Bad as it is.
Life In A Closet
By: Jami JoAnne Russell
Three walls
closed door
musty smell of mothballs
Only light
a square screen
faceless friends
nameless strangers
To them I can tell
the horrible truth
I like boys
I like girls
no confustion
I like both
equally
Keep the door closed
when parents are around
tightly closed
They wouldn't understand
couldn't understand
the pain
the shame
the loneliness
the heartache
No escape
from the darkness
just brief bursts of light
from the square screen.
If they knew
they'd condem
tell me I'm evil
send me away
far away
so I wouldn't shame them
anymore
Here I sit
on the small piece of floor
longing
wanting
needing to escape
to fly
but cannot
cannot leave
ever, ever.
Forever more
in the closet
with only the faceless ones
the nameless ones
on the small square screen of light
to give me hope
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